I can’t retrace the journey precisely now, because I didn’t know I was on it — I just woke up one day and realized I had become a Westerner.

Because I was born in North Carolina and spent a lot of my youth there, I once considered myself a Southerner, even after I moved to New York at the age of 22. By the age of 32 I finally considered myself a New Yorker, but 20 years after that the New York I loved had evaporated around me, and I felt homeless.

I had attended a year or so of college in California, and spent a lot of time working there during my New York years, but I had felt at home only in the dreamland of Hollywood, which also evaporated around me, long before I realized it, in fact.

So I lit out for the territory, to Las Vegas, Nevada, the last frontier town in America. It didn’t seem like a destination so much as an admission that no destination appealed to me. Las Vegas was sufficiently nowhere and anywhere — it suited my mood.

But this year, on a drive back from a visit to New Orleans, one of the only other American cities that still makes sense to me, I noticed something happening to me as I crossed the Mississippi River, drove through part of Louisiana, and hit Texas, where the land opens up and becomes the West.

I thought, “I’m home.”

It’s the way I still feel, for a while, when I visit the coast of North Carolina, where I’m from, when I smell the brackish water of the sounds and the ocean air. But after a while I get an urge to move on — the ghosts chase me away.

It was the way I used to feel returning to New York after time away, seeing the skyline and picking out the Empire State Building, a marker of home for me because it was just a few blocks away from my loft. But at the end, the artists and eccentrics who used to live in my building were mostly gone, replaced by dreary yuppies. Bohemia had all but deserted Manhattan and the island felt exhausted and shoddy, even as everything got more and more expensive.

But the big skies and rolling landscapes of the West have adopted me. I’ve known them for a long time second-hand, through the Western movies and the Western history I’ve loved, but now they belong to me and I belong to them.

This is an American story — it happens all the time. It happened, I’m sure, to my Huguenot ancestors who settled on the coast of North Carolina in the late 17th Century. One day they woke up and didn’t think of themselves as displaced Frenchmen and Frenchwomen anymore. They thought of themselves as Southerners first, probably, and then as Americans.

A distant branch of them moved on to Texas at some point. And then one of their own pushed even further west, to a place where you can still wear a cowboy hat without attracting any special attention.

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